We play the same old games Break up to make up

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We play  the same old games,

 

Back and forth in our brains,

 

Not knowing what we want For each other because we’re the same,

 

 Round and round with our heads in shame,

 

Through all the mistakes we made,

 

I can’t explain it as we play more games back and forth and side to side,

 

 as I’ve come to realize that I can’t take this anymore,

 

As our hearts keep spinning with emotions as our brains play the same game,

 

It’s very hard for me to tell if you’re serious about this,

 

As we claim the same old game back in forth side to side,

 

All around as our hearts beat faster in the world as we play the same old games,

 

 

 

 

Thank you for the sperm

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No need for your phone calls,

 

No need for your lies,

 

There’s no need for your love,

 

No need for you ,

 

My wounds are healed,

 

My heart is healed,

 

All these years I’ve been thinking it was me that caused you to leave,

 

But now I realize it was you that ignorant ass that you are that doesn’t give a damn about his daughter,

 

All these years I’ve been blaming myself looking at the mirror thinking what is wrong with me,

 

When absolutely there was nothing wrong with me it was you,

 

I don’t need nothing from you all,  I wanted was an apology but it seems like that’s not coming ,

 

So sayonara it was nice knowing you as I grow older and become more successful than you ever be,

 

So sayonara nice to know you thank you for the sperm you have given me I appreciated real talk,

I forgive you

 

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It’s okay I forgive you for all you done,

 

No need to shed a tear,

 

I forgive you for all your mistakes you have done,

 

I forgive you for the package that you left at my front door,

 

I forgive you for cheating when a close friend of mine way back when we was young

I forgive you I forgive you for the time to put your hands on me,

 

I forgive you for everything bad that you’ve done,

 

Now let’s just move on forget about past and start a new life,

 

As we start a new life a special place in my heart for you I have kept ,

 

It’s unfortunate that we can’t be together like you want us that something called destiny we have no control over that,

 

I forgive you for everything now let’s move on to a new beginning ,

 

The football captain

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The football captain

 I loved everything about him from his personality to his shyness,

 

 I sat behind him every year waiting for the chance to tell him I’m the one he should be with,

 

 But he was too busy with all the other girls at school the cheerleaders and the hoes,

 

 They couldn’t even remember his name they just wanted him for his fame,

 

   I couldn’t understand why girls would just play him for a sucker, when he was so nice to people and giving and caring and would treat his girls with respect,

 

 There is no way to understand why a sweet boy like him being the school’s football player would get played,

 

 But he had it all figured out when he left me with a broken heart,

 

 Because he didn’t think I can play the part, the football captain the football captain,

 

He had it all figured out you have left me with the broken heart at prom night,

 

See let me take you back to the week of prom the year 1998    Ian asked me to prom and then the night prom I walked into the gym looking amazing in my blue dress I was waiting for my price Ian I couldn’t believe my eyes,

 

The whole school laughed at me as Ian was making out with the one cheerleader that I hated,

 

The football caption had it all figured out when he left with a broken heart,

 

Because he didn’t think I can play the part,

 

But I wasn’t going to stop him,

 

Because you never know how things can turn around,

 

Now looking back 15 years later he has 5 kids from 5 different baby mommas and living on food stamps, lost his contract with the NFL everything just went downhill after he stood me up wow I guess he had it all figured out when he left with me a broken heart

 

As for me I graduated from Harvard and have my law degree I guess he had it all figured out when he left me with a broken heart but look at me now,

 

 

Daddy’s Poem – my king

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Sometimes I sit and stare at the window,

 

Watching this world pass me by,

 

Thinking there’s nothing to live for,

 

But that all changed once I met you,

 

Just seeing your jolly smile for the first time melted my heart,

 

It’s crazy to think it been 13 years since my wonderful king has came into my life,

 

I thank you for all you done I know I don’t tell you this enough but I love you and I will always be a daddy’s girl,

 

I can remember the drive here to Florida it was a new journey for all of us thank you for joining me and mom on this journey in helping us start a new life,

 

You are my wonderful king and no one can ever replace you,

 

I love you dad always and forever

 

 

 

Ordinary girl

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is this really me?

 

As I looked into the Mirror  once more  and think is this really what reflects me?

 

Why don’t people see me?,

 

I’m not weird or stupid or anything just because I have a wheelchair that helps me around,

 

Why don’t people see me now in days? I’m just an ordinary girl I go to school I text my friends I play multiple sports I have my own boy  drama I’m a self published author but I’m still a teenager, 

 

Why don’t people see that I’m just a normal human being just trying to make it to tomorrow going to doctors appointments dealing with pain in my right hip going through puberty going though what every teenage girl gose though,

 

Why don’t people see the true me the girl with a sweet personality kind to others caring why can’t people just forget about the two wheels  and  the chair that’s built around me and just see me as my insecurities eat me alive ,

 

Why can’t people see me? An ordinary teen girl I’m just an ordinary girl behind two wheels and a chair,

 

I wish people can just understand I’m just Tylia an ordinary girl,

 

 

 

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I sit here on this porch,

 

Not knowing anything as the memories continue in my mind,

 

As I look back at flashes across my mind every day sometimes I can’t even sleep,

 

As I see his features once more that a monster I see he’s tall with old looking skin with brown eyes and gray hair baldheaded on the top but with hair on the bottom,

 

That monster has caused me pain for years now as I sit on this porch just thinking about it all,

 

I was only five years old when all this happened but I can still remember it all like it was yesterday I can still hear the monster’s footsteps every night as I close my eye shut as he comes in my room with the lighter and Belt as I get ready to endure the pain of the excruciating lighter and Belt getting ready for the spankings I’m about to indoor as I cried my eyes out and scream save me save me God save me as I fall to the ground as the monster’s wife comes puts me back in my bed like nothing is wrong just laughter out both of them as I cry my eyes out and screem save me save me God save me as I fall back to sleep and the sun comes up as I go to school very timid as I wake up from this nightmare once more realizing is just a dream my heart rate goes back up to where it  was back them,